I forgot to mention that Blossom died on the weekend. Saturday morning I found her. She was only like 7 days in my care and I did everything to keep her comfortable. It doesn’t seem right, but there we go. RIP Blossom Awww… poor hamster.

So anyway, annoyed right now! It’s 4am and I should be going to sleep but I just lost out on Poker and made myself mad. Then I’ve got the TV on watching people bang on about “You slept with him and her and him, the baby isn’t mine!” and then find out they’re completely wrong. Then the TV asks me if I would like to perform my daily software upgrade. Would you like to perform the daily upgrade? No thank you Mr Freeview Box. Okay, I’ll do it anyway.

Seriously - what is the point of me stretching to pick up the damn remote, find the right button to say no to it but then it pops up again less than a minute later. Obviously you won’t let me rest until I damn well upgrade you so just do it - what’s the point in asking!?

It’s like when someone says “What would you like to do this evening? Eat or go for a drink?” You tell them you want to eat and they say, “Oh well I wanted to drink so we’ll do that instead yeah?” It’s like… why the hell did you ask me in the first place then? I know a few people I could mark guilty for that. Grrr… 4am makes me moody.

But if it’s any consolation, there are new things up all over the place. Check out each section, hundreds of pages have been added

It’s been eight years today since my stepfather, Sean died. He passed away from chronic alcoholism, knew he was going to die but chose not to change his ways. Still, eight years on I miss him. He meant the world to me, after never really having my real dad around - it was amazing to have a fatherly figure, doing family stuff with him. He bought me an expensive bicycle and would take me out on it, even though I often fell off and hurt myself.

Seeing him detereorate was horrible. I’d see the pain in my mum’s eyes and notice how hard she tried to keep his daughter looked after (she came to live with us when she was only a few months old) and how hard she tried to make him stop drinking. I remember the way he’d stumble home after being round his parents house with bottles upon bottles of cider. I remember the arguments and the tears he caused.

But it mostly sticks with me just how happy we all were, when he wasn’t drunk. Those times when he was able to control himself. I miss those. I try to talk to my mum about him sometimes, but she changes the subject before things get too much for us both. I hope that where ever he is, he’s happy. And I hope he knows I’m thinking of him always.

So I started an online “magazine” type of site, designed to give advice and the latest gossip to teens all around the world. It contains the articles that used to feature on Dusted Petals plus a whole lot more. The site is located at Smoochable.ORG, go see!

So a few things. Blossom, the new hamster has settled in. She keeps me up all night unlike Mr Ham, he was too fat to do anything much, hah. I’ve booked a hair appointment too, for highlights and a cut. Not had it trimmed since last October so as you can imagine it’s getting a little out of control. I booked it for Tuesday so I can go away on the Friday with my new do.

I’ll be travelling back to Somerset next Friday to celebrate my birthday (on the 29th April). I’m meeting with my best friend back from school, we haven’t caught up in years so it’s going to be great. We’ll probably shop in the day and go to a few clubs on the Saturday night. Tuesday I’ll be back in Devon for my birthday.

Also - I’ve decided to go back to College in September but it’ll be in Somerset where I used to go to college, so I’ll need to save for a car plus the course fees by September. I’m being tight with my money but it’ll be worth it in the end. Also - the compensation money I get from the car accident will help a lot, whatever amount it turns out to be. So wish me luck with that! I’ll need around £3500 altogether, to buy a car and pay the insurance off for a year plus around £900 course fees, possibly more.

Sam better get me something nice, hehe

So after Mr Ham passed away at the dear old age of 2 years and 3 months, Sam was sweet to buy me a new hamster. I wanted the russian dwarf, so fluffy and adorable but the lady in the store pretty much pushed the chinese dwarf onto me instead. I don’t mind though, I’ve had lots of them before and if you treat them well they can be so sweet.

I named her Blossom - she’s so small and pretty, very friendly too - just sits on my hand for ages and eats carrots It’s nice to have a new pet, I was lonely without Mr Ham. Yeah, I’m a little odd. I talk to my hamsters. But still - for as long as I’m house sharing I can’t have a kitten or puppy so have to settle for the smaller creatures. Still, she’s nice

Britt has a new layout up. It’s very summery, go check her out. She’s been a great help these past years. Always there to give me advice and support through the rough times. Also, a special plug to Kristi and Jis for being the amazing people that they are. It’s nice having people to talk to online. Sometimes just talking to Sam and myself (I told you - I’m not normal haha) can be lonely. It will be nice to start working again and make some friends in this new town.

I’ve also been looking into going back to college plus dieting my ass off for my birthday in two weeks. And pushing my claim for compensation since the car accident with my mum when I went to London. Whiplash is painful and I’ve been suffering a lot from it. So some comp’ money would be nice. So anyway - have a good weekend!

Okay so I’ve been pretty busy lately. I went to visit my granma in London with my mum for a week, resulting in a car accident, two collisions with a drink driver and a very bad case of whiplash. The bright side being that I can claim high compensation which should come through in a few months. The dark side being that I’ve spent most of my time laid in bed complaining about the aches and pains shooting through my neck and spine. But apart from that - there isn’t much to moan about.

If you live alone and can’t stand shopping for food, I suggest ordering online. I ordered my shopping from ASDA with a £5 delivery charge and had around 2 months worth of shopping sent to me. Can’t complain about that, considering I can only carry three or four small bags each time I visit there and the train costs about £4 for a return ticket. But the best thing was that they accidently gave me two extra bags full of items. Now I’m not one to admit mistakes when they’re in my favour, so for dinner tonight I enjoyed a tasty Piri Piri Chicken microwave meal that wasn’t even on my list. Fantastic!

As you can see all the articles have been removed from this site. This will now be a personal/tutorial/graphic site only. My blog will stay here. Articles are on a new teen fashion, celebrity & article based website I’ve been putting together over the past week or so. Once all is up and running smoothly I shall share the link.

And the best news of all is that Sam’s lump was not cancer. Just an abnormal cyst. What a relief that brought for everyone. Thank you for your supportive comments on the last blog though, it did mean an awful lot to us both