My Last Drink: Sat 8th December 2007 (?)

So I’m going to start seeing an alcohol counsellor and a regular psychologist about the stress and depressive state I’ve got myself into these past few weeks. The alcohol counsellor is due to the amount I drink on a weekend and during the week.

A woman is meant to have an intake of 14 alcohol units per week. Any more and it’s going over the recommended healthy lifestyle in regards to alcohol consumption. I sat with my doctor and worked out that I have a weekly intake of 107 units on average.

Now do you see why I need help?

So I ruin a lot of things due to alcohol. My personal health, relationships, friendships, family bonds, jobs, my confidence, stupid mistakes of one night stands and ridiculous arguments, wasting a lot of money, getting into debt, becoming dependant on alcohol to get me by, ruined all my school exams because of it when I was 16.

I think it’s time I put my foot down and stopped drinking. Not forever - but learning to drink in moderation, and not very often - maybe a few times a month. No more binge drinking or getting to the point where I don’t know what’s happening to me. No more random pints or glasses of vodka in the daytime or evenings alone when I’m bored. No more drinking for confidence.

From now on it’s lack of alcohol and lots of vegetables. In other words - I’m taking on board a completely new healthy lifestyle and it’s about time that I stuck to it too. This is not a New Year Resolution - they never work. This is for me, and only me. Not for anyone else.

Wish me luck.