Tougher Than I’d Realised
December 17, 2007 || Filed under alcohol, rants ||
My Last Drink: Sat 15th December 2007 (?)
This is so much harder than I first assumed. To quit drinking for me is like telling your average person that they’re never allowed to laugh again. To me, drink is a natural thing. It’s part of my life. Without alcohol, I can’t dance. Without alcohol, I can’t attend job interviews or important meetings. Without alcohol, I can’t go on dates. Without alcohol, I can’t even go to work without getting really stressed and nervous about what people might be thinking of me.
It’s taken a huge toll on my life and by trying to quit - it’s really made me realise how much I depended on it. I feel so disappointed in myself as since I posted about quitting I’ve been drinking more than before, probably almost 200 units this week I’ve gone through. Had three days off work and made myself sick countless amounts of times.
Obviously Christmas will be a time for parties and celebration, although I don’t celebrate with family much - I will with friends. So to avoid any drink mishaps - I’m going out for a drink on Saturday night as a Christmas AND New Year celebration in one. I’m taking out £20 only and limiting my intake.
Then Christmas Eve, Boxing Day, New Years Eve (until 1.30am) and New Years Day I will be working - so no chance for me to go out and get drunk to celebrate any of them. Which is a good idea, I think. Especially as I’ll be paid on time and a half, too - which is quite a bit of money extra for my wages.
So although I haven’t really got very far - I’m not giving up. I’m going to make a diary log on this site too under the Laura section. It will be nice to look back in months or years and think, hmm - I got there in the end! And it will be a good read for others who may experience the same problems as myself.
Thank you for all your kind comments/words - your support is going to help me through this so much easier than if I were to do it alone.
Michelle Kristi Connie Britt Nichola nicola Emma Remy
Awww. I’m sure you’ll make it in the end. I think keeping a log will be good. You’d be able to see how you didn’t have a drink for X amount of days and it’d be good to look back to see how well you’ve done.
Comment by Michelle — December 18, 2007 @ 5:19 am
Aww honey. Theres going to be bumps along the road but you must not give up, okay? Keeping a log is great idea and celebrating the two together is great too. Just hang in there and try to find other ways to take your mind off things, okay? Stay strong darlin.
Comment by Kristi — December 19, 2007 @ 6:40 am
Oh dear, I hope you get through this soon. It’s really good that you aren’t going to give up. Keep it up and good luck to you! :]
Comment by Connie — December 20, 2007 @ 7:46 am
Ahw Laura, that sucks. You can do better, I know it! I’m sure you’ll make it through! Keep it up, hun! xoxo
Comment by Britt — December 20, 2007 @ 10:36 am
Aww, im sure you will get through this, my friend went through something simlilar to this and got through it
so if she could do it i am pretty sure you can 
good luck!
Comment by Nichola — December 20, 2007 @ 4:42 pm
Good luck with giving the drink up - eventually things will be hundreds of times better. You’ve got all our support xx
Comment by nicola — December 20, 2007 @ 6:41 pm
Don’t worry I’m sure you will get there soon *hugs*
Comment by Emma — December 20, 2007 @ 8:53 pm
I was randomly going friends’ blogs and I found this one. I must say, I love the layout :)) lol
I commemorate and support you on your decision to stop drinking; I think its great that you’re working towards a goal like that. I know how hard it is, I’ve had family and friends go through it, but it is possible. There are hard times but just remember to stay strong, the end results are very fulfilling. With a strong mindset, other hobbies and things you enjoy, and good friends and support on your side, you WILL get through this! Best of luck and keep up the great work!
Comment by Remy — December 27, 2007 @ 7:36 pm